Alec Baldwin 'Wanted to Kill Himself' After 'Rust' Shooting, Wife Hilaria Claims

actor Alec Baldwin He reportedly was in a dark place following the cinematographer’s fatal shooting in 2021 Harina Hutchins A set of the Western film “Rust.”

The “30 Rock” actor was rehearsing a scene inside the church when the gun he was hugging left, but he claimed he didn’t pull the trigger.

It is still unclear how the live bullet ended within the prop gun on the film set, but his trial was dismissed on the third day of witness testimony after the judge ruled that the prosecution had not disclosed evidence to his legal team and dismissed the charges against the actor.

In the second episode of the TLC reality series “The Baldwins,” Alec’s wife, Hilaria Baldwin, revealed the “survivor’s guilt” that the actor struggles following the fatal shooting.

“The other day we found these text messages between us,” Hiralia told camera. “And (Alec) said he wanted to commit suicide.”

In her confession, she continued to say that her husband “has survivor’s guilt” after the fatal shooting. “You’re involved in this thing no one could have imagined, and he’s going back that day and hopes it’s him,” she said. “He’ll change places (with Hutchins) in a second.”

In addition to the mental health struggle, Hilaria says the “super cell” actor also experiences several physical elements, including heart problems, fainting and multiple hospitalizations.

“He’s never going to be the same,” Hilaria said in her second episode. “This has had a huge impact on his health and mental health over the past few years. Suddenly, he’s started having heart problems. He’s been hospitalized multiple times.”

She also remembers the time he “disappeared” and as a result she wakes up “shaking him.” “It’s difficult sometimes,” the former yoga instructor added. “But you know, hopefully, we’re the hardest, but the tail end of it.”

He will no longer face criminal consequences for Harina Hutchins’ death, but her mother, father and sisters are still filing civil suits against the actor. According to the filing obtained by Hollywood Reportertheir lawyers intend to take Baldwin’s deposit on May 9th at the company’s New York office.

“It has been a long time since Gloria Allred, a family lawyer, has been testimony on swearing and testifying to what actually happened that caused Harina Hutchins’ death.”

In a statement obtained by peopleThe magazine, Allred, questioned why Baldwin emphasized the emotional sacrifice that the “rust” shooting took him.

“Why does he claim to have PTSD?” she asked. “Is his reality show a veiled attempt to generate sympathy for himself in our civil case in the future ju-search pool? Is this a shameless attempt to portray him as the real victim in this case?”

Allred claimed that the actor never apologized for Hutchins’ death, saying, “He said he was sorry and never tried to contact her parents or sisters, and to this day he was never responsible for Harina’s death.”

During the premiere of “The Baldwins” last month, Alec told his wife, “This is, this is just surreal,” as he discussed the fatal “rust” shooting and the subsequent legal turmoil he has faced over the past few years.

“I mean, I can’t believe we are going through this. I’m always feeling more painful than you. I think I’ll do my best to get through it.”

In his confession, he added: “The last year has been terrible. I was lying in bed. I’m going, ‘Wow, my kids. I can’t stand up.’ It’s not like me. I’m not like that at all, and in any way, I’ve never.”

Hilaria then revealed that the actor’s OCD has been getting worse since being diagnosed with PTSD, saying, “If an accident had to happen on this day, why am I still here? Why couldn’t I be me?”